wtf...henrys finally updating his freakin site?!?! lol

nah not really dudes...this is probably gonna b my last entry for this site...gotta new xanga up now...but still under construction...check it out tho...

www.xanga.com/hotsauzee_inc

mad props to chynkee for helpin me out wit it  lol

waddup fam...wow, so much had happened since my last entry...iono even know what the hell is goin on wit me rite now...but recently ive got myself in some deep shit wit a couple of my boys...and for that...ima have to do some time...fuck was i thinkin that day...i really regret what i did cuz it was so fucken stupid...been in the cell for a good 4 days and rikers overnight...already im feelin really fucked up for my actions...like how everybody say if only time could b turned back...thats what im sayin to myself rite now...but the fact is...that aint gonna happen...iono...i feel more of an idiot to finally realize the consequences after all this time...

well i just came back from rikers a couple of hours ago...and the feelin of feedom just rushed into me that i almost started cryin...i was just so happy to c all my friends and family...all those ppl that were there to support me the whole time...mad love...but on the real...this shit aint even over yet...still gotta go back to court on wednesday to find out whats gonna happen to me next...thats y im writin this entry...could b seriously the last entry that ima write...

so here comes the shout outz: first and most important shout out goes to my family...i finally realize how much they mean to me and how much they done for me...it really cuts me up to think bout the fact that i fucked up my parents expectation of me becomin successful in life...but ima still try my best to make that up...then comes my nigga danny...u 1 on my best friends out there man...we've been tru so much together back then and to know the fact that u were 1 of the few that was there for me on my last court date just stays in my mind forever..next shout out has to go to rita...like danny...u were there for me always too and cuz of that i'll never forget bout u..then comes stephanie aka mz. booiee...u are always there for me when i needed some1 to talk to...to put a smile on my face when i b stessin over the stupidest things...even tho we havent known each other for long...our friendship seems that way...i will definetly miss u...after that comes my on leong (U.L.D.) niggas...for instance...ricky, ujin, g gor, etc...im sorry that i dissapointed u guys for my actions and i hope i dont get kicked out becuz of this incident becuz i really enjoy my time at the club and i would do n e thing to stay in...finally comes may...even tho we dont communicate much now...i still consider u 1 of my close friends becuz we had alot of memories from the past that were both good and bad...i just hope u are satisfied wit the path u are on now and stay happy...now that im done wit these shout outz...i got a few "special shout outz" to yall: first...feng and gary...again...we had lots of ups and downs and shit in the past...but deep inside...yall still my niggas in the end...hope yall 2 stay outa trouble ight...next up is lina...there are so many things i wanna talk to u about thats been on my mind, that ive been tryin to get out but cant...addin on to the fact that u are goin to leave soon too...i just cant stop thinkin bout u...hopefully i will get a chance to talk to u personally within the next 2 days before my trial and most important...b4 u leave...finally...gotsta shout out to the rest of my 128 fam, my grand fam, and my cherry fam and every other friends i havent mentioned...i really appreciate all of yall thats been there for me and supported me all the way...ima miss u people alot...hope all of u wish me luck on wednesday...im lookin forward to seein all of u 1 day again.

1 luv always

mood: confused

song: jordan chan-sut loon wong (still b lovin that song...)

highlights: damn...these past few days been like a rolla coasta ride...wtf son...on saturday,wes was celebratin krystles bday in a hotel n all...me, gary, krystle, willson, janice, liz, stan and steph...and i gots ta admit it...i got kinda buzzed...and funny shit was when some of us was tryin to sleep...the couples b makin out n shit and the noise just kept me awake for a good couple of hrs...then later...they b sayin they hungry n shit so me, janice and steph went to mc D's at like 5 in the mournin and i was bout to throwup...but didnt...so we went baq...it was like 6 something...and the sun was comin up...thats when i finally had a chance to sleep...but when i was sleepin...janice b mad grouchy and shit...she b kickin me and slappin her hand at me everytime i fall back asleep...u know how bad i was trying to sleep yo!!!...fucken that must b the least time i slept in a day...owell...sall good...finally once after we all woke up...we bounced and ate dim sum...went wit janice to develop pics after that...then had to go up to on leong for a lion dance show...we met at 430 and the show ends up endin at 8 something...damn thats type long...after that we went to eat and when we almost done...cimmy b throwin words around at rita and ricky had to settle all this misunderstandin shit...i wasnt there to c what happen cuz i was outside stoggin...too much stress already...and to add on to that...after we left the resturant, we bump into z and tammy and theys was arguin and shit...aiyah!!!...luckily i didnt get invloved....then once we went to the pool hall...it was empty like krazy...there was literally no 1 tehre...so we then walked rita home and finally bounced home...today...nuttin much really happened...usual skool day...went to kyrstles crib after skool and found out more bad news...gary told me taht me might b leavin to upstate and i was like wtf?!...i told him that if he does, he'll b leavin mad stuff behind and shit...but i really dont know what to say to him cuz in his situation wit the family and all, i would wanna bounce too...so its really up to him...but if n e thing...i'll always b here for u and all my other hing dais and friends...we'll never forget u bro

peace

ps-if u do move gary, just stay safe and finish your education and come baq to ct...once u do, we'll throw u a big ass party son...lol

mood: reminiscin =/

song: jordan chan- sut loon wong

highlights: damn son, this week went by like whoa ...lets see what happened...on valentines day...got sorta drunk...kinda sux not to have a date on that special day like that...was bout to spend a whole lotta $$ if i had 1...but sall good...what else happened...o yea, pool hall everyday like ususal...what else...hmm...saw darkness falls...pretty wierd movie...that shit scared the fuck outa gary...lol...then sometime durring the week...like a day after the freaken big ass blizzard shit, me, gary, eugene, adam, and z went to shovel snow for people for some doe...didnt make much...once we split that shit, came out to b like 35 for each person..o well...then today, went to lion dance practice...kinda funny when matt was practicing the lion tail...lol...then after the practice...went to some internet place and stayed for a while, then brought rita home...then went back to the internet place to meet up wit annie and we ate at some shanghai place...lol...i knew  annie couldnt handle spicy food...haha...then finally after that...went baq to pool hall to chill till like 8 then went to garys crib to chill some more and then finally went home...*whiew...lol

~hOtsAuZee iNc.

waddup fam...whats really really good?! damn this week went by FAST...lucky i only had to retake 1 freakin regents...the chem regents...that shit was hell.. o yea...just remembered...chinese new year is comin up...cant wait for the red envelopes to roll in...hehehe =) but n e ways, what i really want rite now is valentine...n e 1 up for bids...rofl j/k...but seriously...if n e 1 want to b my valentine...just give me a holla

ps- i look a bit different from my xanga pic...so no haters ight =)

~bh crew-phaze + hOtsAuZee iNc.